Letter to Beckett

Dear Beckett,

It's so hard for me to grasp that it's time for me to go back to work and you to start daycare.  It seems like just yesterday we were bringing you home from the hospital.  Like with your sister, things started out a little tough.  I was more prepared this time and knew things would get better, but those early months were hard.  But then you just lit up.  You went from crying all of the time unless you were being held, to being so content and one happy baby.

I feel so fortunate to get to be your mommy.  To have spent the last six months with you at home, not having to work.  Your smiles and giggles make my day.  I've been able to watch you grow from this tiny little newborn who ate, slept, pooped and cried to a six month old who is chunking up and jabbers nonstop.

Going from a family of three to four has been crazy and chaotic.  The schedule we had down pat was thrown out the window.  But I wouldn't trade what we have now for one second.  You've been the most amazing addition to this family little man.  We've figured out our new normal.  

Picking you up in the morning and having you smile, burry your head in my shoulder, and then "tell" me all about what you want to do for the day is the best start to my day.  Those snuggles mean so much to mommy.

I'm going to miss you buddy.  Weeknights will be crazy.  But I'm going to eat up every second I have until it's bedtime.  And I'll soak up every day of the weekends.  I know this time a little more of what to expect.  I know that your naps will probably be terrible at school.  You probably won't eat exactly at the times I would have fed you.  You might even be a little sad when we drop you off.  But…I know that you'll grow to love your teachers as much as we do. You'll be sad to have to say goodbye to them every time you get bigger and have to move to the next room.  You'll make new friends and eventually tell us all about who you played with and ate lunch with.  

I know you are too little to remember our time alone together.  But I hope you can sense the joy you bring to our family and how much we all love you.  

I love you buddy.  Please don't every forget that.

xoxo,
Mommy