The doctor called today around 2. My numbers increased even more. So many thoughts were going through my head. Was she positive that this was ectopic and no chance that there was a healthy baby in there? She said that based on the ultrasound, there was no baby where one should be. I am far enough along that she should have seen something. And my blood level really isn't high enough for a healthy baby being 7 weeks along.
The hospital called to schedule the appointment for my shots for later in the afternoon. I got in my car and called Aaron bawling. I understand that God won't give me more than I can handle. But it just seems like every time I finally accept one situation, something else is thrown at me. I may sound like a broken record. Aaron was very supportive and said he'd drive up to the hospital if I needed him.
I got to the hospital and the nurses could tell I was upset. They were being very nice and asked if I wanted to wait for anyone. I would only be at the hospital for 20 minutes, so by the time Aaron got there, it would be over. I didn't want to make him drive all the way there again.
Now I'm home and just hoping that this medicine helps my body heal. I go back Friday and Monday for more blood work. Then I have to go in once a week for blood work until my levels reach 0. I am praying that that things now move in the right direction. It's hard enough knowing that this wasn't a health pregnancy, but all of these tests and appointments just keep driving the stake further into my heart.
Hoping that Tuesday brings results moving in the right direction....
Hi, Laura. I'm so sorry for the loss you are going through. My story is different, but I know what it's like to lose a tiny one so early on.
ReplyDeleteI don't know if you have a Twitter account at all, but there is a great, amazing community on there - women who share their journey with infertility, treatments, losses, and eventual births. If you aren't already plugged into it this support group, know you will be welcomed with open arms. You can find me here https://twitter.com/#!/justpureness. I have a relatively small group of followers, but they are great, and you can always branch out from there if you want. (or just use it as a starting place - you don't have to add me)
I really hope you have a support group around you going through this, but it always helps to have others who really know what it's like.
Praying for your body, heart and soul. May you know his peace as you go through this tragedy.