It has been quite an emotional past few days. After my post on Tuesday, I started feeling horrible physically. I wasn't doubled over but I definitely did not feel good. I started crying and telling Aaron that I wasn't sure what we should do. Should we go to the ER? I am so thankful Aaron was with me at the doctor's appointment earlier in the day. He reminded me that the doctor said all of the pain would be focused on one said and I would be doubled over unable to move. He said he'd obviously support my decision to go, but it was nice to have those calm reminders. I said goodnight and went to bed crying. Like the amazing husband he is, he followed me upstairs and rubbed my back until I finally fell asleep. I woke up on and off throughout the night. I woke up the next day deciding that I needed a day off work both for my emotional health and I still wasn't feeling well.
Wally and I cuddled all day and I watched way to many episodes of 19 Kids and Counting. I was feeling better but still not great. The doctor said a side effect would be cramping, but she never mentioned what I was feeling. I debated calling the office on and off all day. Thursday morning I finally called on my way to work. She assured me again that as long as I wasn't doubled over, these were side effects that some women experience. I don't feel well when I eat either so it's been hard to find something appetizing to eat.
I go in today for my first follow up blood draw. I go back Monday. I am hoping and praying this all works. I am so tired. And I just want to feel ok again and be able to move on. I pray I don't have to be one of the few who goes through multiple rounds of this drug. Thankfully work has been understanding with no questions asked.
I've also decided that coming the New Year, I'm making an appointment with a specialist. I've debated a million times over when the right time is. We haven't been trying for that magic one year mark quite yet. But I have a history of issues. And clearly I don't want to have to go through this all again. I like my OB, but I just don't feel like I was monitored how I should have been. I would feel much better being in the care of someone who does this day in and day out. I want to call an office where the nurses are special people with special skills to deal with some of the most emotional women and truly care. I'm so thankful that I have a small support group of amazing women of close family and friends in my life who back me up 100%. And Aaron knows that he should just always agree with everything :)
We are heading to Grand Rapids this weekend for a family Christmas party. I'm really looking forward to relaxing and being with family. There's nothing like a good dose of "mom" time to lift my spirits.
Wally and I cuddled all day and I watched way to many episodes of 19 Kids and Counting. I was feeling better but still not great. The doctor said a side effect would be cramping, but she never mentioned what I was feeling. I debated calling the office on and off all day. Thursday morning I finally called on my way to work. She assured me again that as long as I wasn't doubled over, these were side effects that some women experience. I don't feel well when I eat either so it's been hard to find something appetizing to eat.
I go in today for my first follow up blood draw. I go back Monday. I am hoping and praying this all works. I am so tired. And I just want to feel ok again and be able to move on. I pray I don't have to be one of the few who goes through multiple rounds of this drug. Thankfully work has been understanding with no questions asked.
I've also decided that coming the New Year, I'm making an appointment with a specialist. I've debated a million times over when the right time is. We haven't been trying for that magic one year mark quite yet. But I have a history of issues. And clearly I don't want to have to go through this all again. I like my OB, but I just don't feel like I was monitored how I should have been. I would feel much better being in the care of someone who does this day in and day out. I want to call an office where the nurses are special people with special skills to deal with some of the most emotional women and truly care. I'm so thankful that I have a small support group of amazing women of close family and friends in my life who back me up 100%. And Aaron knows that he should just always agree with everything :)
We are heading to Grand Rapids this weekend for a family Christmas party. I'm really looking forward to relaxing and being with family. There's nothing like a good dose of "mom" time to lift my spirits.
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