Seriously? Emotional roller coaster...

Well I thought my body was finally getting back to normal.  I started bleeding more heavily, cramping, etc.  I've had weird "pains" or aches in my stomach on and off though.  Also, my stomach really felt odd for a few days every single time I ate (that has subsided thankfully).  I decided to call my doctor just to see her thoughts.  She wasn't overly concerned, but wrote me a script for blood work.  I went and had my blood drawn on Thursday after work.  There was a pregnant woman there, and I couldn't help but think, that was supposed to be me in a few months.  It wasn't that I had any resentment toward her...just an empty feeling that I'm now missing out.

Friday the doctor called with my results.  It was the actual doctor which I knew meant something was odd.  The nurse usually always calls back unless it's bad.  My beta has risen to 2,600.  For reference, it was 900 last Wednesday when they told me I was miscarrying.  Now it's back up.  The doctor is now worried about an ectopic pregnancy.  We scheduled an ultrasound for Tuesday morning, so now I'm playing the waiting game.  She said if I feel any extreme discomfort to call the office and head to the ER.  

I post occasionally on The Bump just to get other pregnant/ttc women's opinions. I immediately posted my situation.  It's a pretty large community so I figured there had to be other women in my same situation.  Comments were mixed...some said that they are going through the same thing and it was ectopic, others said theirs was actually a miscarried twin and the second turned into a healthy pregnancy.  I know that I shouldn't get my hopes up.  I know that I'm probably not that lucky. But I can't help but think that maybe this one time a miracle happened.  

I'm trying not to think about it until Tuesday.  I'm debating if I want Aaron to come with me.  If it's bad, I would love the emotional support.  But is it weird to have your husband come to an ultrasound when the news is most likely going to be confirmation of what your body has already been going through?  He said he'd definitely go if I wanted him to.  I guess I have a few days to think about it...